This week has been better. I went back to work and life has started to feel "normal" albeit missing something, but I think that will always be there. It felt good to get back to work. Today, however, has been kind of hard. It's lonely today so I'm left alone with my thoughts and the time is just dragggging by until we can start to TTC again. Dr. says six months but the general consensus everywhere I have read and from everyone with an EP I have talked to online has been told 3 or less. So at this point we are looking at Feb-March at the earliest, although I would love to TTC NOW. As sad as we are and as much as grieve our baby's loss, I know that I will feel some relief one day when I have a healthy baby in my uterus, in the right place. I only hope that is in the cards for us.

Once again going back to wishing I knew the answers... the answers to why this happened and the answers to "is this going to happen again?" "Will I get my sticky baby this year?" "Will it travel to the right place?" I just want someone to be able to tell me, definitely YES. I know time will tell. But I have a love/hate relationship with TIME.

It takes too long.